I wish I had someone that I could talk to online. Someone who I've never met before, who will listen to my rant endlessly. And I would let them rant endlessly as well. Someone who I could tell my problems to without them being biased. Someone to help me and give advice or just listen. Someone who I can trust. Is that too much to ask? Yeah, I guess it kind of is.
Today I cut for the first time in like a month. What the heck? I was doing so great. I was resisting every time I saw something. I had such great control. And then I screwed it up, just like I screw everything else up. I’m such a failure. I saw that I hadn’t lost any weight and I freaked and cut. And the worst part? These feelings just make me want to cut again. And I think I’m going to.